I am flattered with the attention and all but…

As you can see I’ve been blogging for three days straight now. And don’t you get ideas that I’m not busy or that I don’t have anything better to do. It’s just that sometimes I feel the need to tear myself away from this:

Don’t get me wrong, I love drawing but I feel that this is becoming a rigid routine, I’m starting to get ‘the itch’. I need another project, hence: blogging.  

Okay, so while I was working on my “second floor plan; scale 1=1:50″ I recalled the conversation I had with my sister yesterday. She said, my other sister was hurt because I haven’t been sharing some parts of my personal life.

Let me just straighten my back here, swing a few neck bones and shake my hands. Hooh! Stress! @@#!##%^)()($$%$&

I am often regarded as someone who is mysterious and/or secretive. As far back as I can imagine I have always been a topic among people’s conversations. It’s like I need to constantly remind them of this: I AM NOT A PORN STAR! (hehe!) But no, seriously, this has always been the case. I really don’t get why people need to know who I’m going out with, what I’m doing with my life or who I’m wasting my time with. (breathe in, breathe out) This really ticks me off. 

Point no. 1: I am not THAT secretive (or maybe at some point I am). But here’s the thing, when I am not being asked (especially about personal stuff) I don’t go around announcing to people everything in my luggage. I am just like that, how can I ever explain!

Point no. 2: Privacy is important to me mainly because it creates exclusivity between two people. If you don’t agree, I don’t care, this is my deal.

Point no. 3: More to point no. 2; In every relationship, I believe there will always be struggles, misunderstandings and inevitable ambiguities with each other. And these are further aggravated by people who can’t stop yapping about their own experiences, irrationalities and unsupported assumptions. If differences were confronted with other people involved it is more likely to be doomed. Instead of just the two of them working everything out, instead of just the two of them conversing, because of other people’s pricking words the two of them just can’t do it anymore. Hence, another messed up relationship.

Point no. 4: I do not intentionally try to hurt people, especially friends and family. If you feel hurt because you feel I’m locking you out of my life, then I say that you’re being dense for even thinking about that.

Point no. 5: I am different. I am not a shrieking girl (and I don’t have a problem with that either). This is just me.

I think it is in my discretion what things I want to treasure for myself and what things I want to share. Don’t worry, I can always be asked, though I can’t always answer. 

I hate explaining myself, I usually suck in it. Hehe! Did I get my point across?

Again: I am NOT a PORN STAR. hehehe!

~ by dadadoll on November 27, 2008.