DadaDoll

24x36in, acrylic on canvas

i have never been this happy! i am in love. SO IN LOVE WITH LIFE AND GOD!

i had my rough years, years when i continuously asked myself what is my life’s purpose? I know that sounds so mid-life crisis type thinking, but yes, i almost believed i was going to die young because i was experiencing mid-life crisis at the age of 19! hehe

i finished my study as a nurse because i felt that my life’s purpose is to help other people especially the poor. i even asked the Lord to always guide me in my studies so that i can help other people after i’m done, but the truth is i was never happy. I got through, but the same feeling was there… empty. i tried, but same feeling persisted and i gave up. I felt guilty, so I volunteered at church as a nurse, but still i felt empty, lacking.

It is when i started going out of my way, then i realized how to be really happy. my core gifts are ebbed from art and music and me diversifying these things sucked the life out of me!

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i learned about capoeira through internet, i have no idea what it was, but coincidentally it hit me on the face. i was never a sporty person (well, i used to golf, bowl, and swim, but was never that into it), but when i saw capoeira i said to myself i have to learn this. i was curious. what reeled me in was the music, the art, more so the passion meshed together from people there. the first few weeks have been very rough (actually, it still is!), but when i first heard the berimbau, their voices and saw the art put in every game, i realized i will endure any pain for THIS. my heart leapt in places!

It teaches me not just how to discipline my mind, control my body, but a way of life!

I breathe and live for art and music, everything that came and went with it, i am most willing to accept. And this is my life’s purpose, to hone my core gifts, persevere in abundance from wealth, love, and to share. It is still there, i want to help poor people. share, share, share!…only this time it is linked to my core gifts.

i will do it. watch me. 🙂